It’s been almost one month since I relocated in Redmond, Washington. Now I also have a home office, more space, everything is new but still…something was bothering me.

All the packing/unpacking triggered so many emotions and so many memories. Times from my twenties, always looking for cheap places to live and never finding them. Searching for a good roommate and ending up by taking care of them, cooking, washing, like a big sister or mother. Frustration that I couldn’t afford to buy a place of my own. So many memories!

Packing old gifts, photos, books, a certain perfume, a certain sensation…All is coming back, invading your soul.

I was the one to decide it was time to move. I wasn’t happy with the small apartment I was living in. It was old, moldy and so small. I found a wonderful place, newly remodeled with everything I was dreaming of and for a very reasonable price.

Everything was good, but still…the emotions and memories were overwhelming. I just realized that maybe one of the reasons I don’t like to keep things, letters, gifts, photos could be that I don’t like the sadness and grief they could bring sometimes.

I’m all crazy about organizing everything, not keeping anything I don’t need. I know, I’m a Virgo and I’m supposed to be like that. But when I was younger and didn’t know to deal with my emotions this was a really easy way for keeping myself on the track.

So, to be able to fully enjoy my new place I had to make peace with my soul. I had to deal with the emotions that were still unresolved from many years ago. I had to let go of the grief that I didn’t do this or that. I had to understand again why I decided to live in US and be so far away from Romania.

I had to trust myself I’m going to be ok even in another place. I was letting go of the first place I lived in when I moved in Seattle. It seemed familiar but it was time to move forward.

If it happens to you to feel that you should be happy but you’re not…if you’re looking for that joy and don’t understand what happened with it…maybe it’s time to open up the closets of your soul and do a spring cleaning. It’s like when you’re looking at clothes that don’t fit you anymore but you love them and it’s so hard to give them away.

Wipe out the guilt, blame, grief, frustration or fear and bring in the joy, happiness, clarity and courage. Blend them with your experience and skills so you’ll have the perfect recipe for letting go of the past and moving on with your life.

Have a wonderful spring, full of joy and accomplishments! And if you still feel some grief, count me in to be there for you and help you through this process

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